“Rhythm is motion, and the feel of the motion should correspond to the feel of the words, to bring life to the meaning of the message.” (Pg 139 - Baloche) The Lord is orchestrating a new rhythm for my life. The rhythm that follows the melody He has sung and sings over me. I am learning to listen for Him and the delicacy of the rapid pace of the current season of this life, this season that I am in. I don’t think I have ever been more emotionally exhausted and strong at the same time. I definitely have never been this spiritually alive, in the community but in direct communion with the Lord before. Am I perfect, far from it! It is only by His grace that He is revealing my flaws, my shortcomings, and the further I could go. Still, here in the rhythm of life now, here seated in my 101 St. Andrews Palm Air apartments is where He has me, writing this reflection for worship specialization. For He has led me this far and I am choosing to look to Him even though I do not understand the why, how, or future what. Lord, I love you and commit the rest of this day to you. Would you direct my soul to sway to the rhythm of the beloved melody you sing over me?
Practically in conversation with the Lord, He has asked me countless times, “Do you trust me?” and honestly the majority of this semester to now, I honestly just want to be done. I want to go back home, to my comfortable coffee shop, my parent's basement, and there live out the rest of my days. Is it depression, no. Is it Anxiety? Maybe. But what is at the root? It is simply a distrusting in the words of the Lord that have been written and spoken directly to me. He has told me, “I’m with you in the waiting, in the process." Now He asks, "Will you trust me?” I am choosing now to say yes. No more half in, half out. He’s called me to go all in. So that is what I am going to do! Will it be messy? Probably! But where He leads, I am determined to follow. :)
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